I admit I’ve made some massive mistakes the past 7 days but I know I wasn’t fully to blame.
I’m ready to let it all go. I’m ready to make sure I am never that person who got into such a vulnerable position ever again. Hating myself won’t work. Only when I love myself truly will I never be that vulnerable.
Loving myself is the greatest thing I can do right now.
But why is it so hard?
Why can’t I love myself the way others do?
I’m ready to try. I’m going to be on my own next week when I move to London and although I’m so excited to move…I need to really develop my self-love and self-worth to enable that I’m strong enough to never hurt this way again.
The biggest demon is my scales.
I can’t seem to let them go.
I’m ready to throw out so much stuff that doesnt mean anything to me, or makes me feel bad due to the memories or I simply don’t need on my journey into this new chapter.
So why is it so hard to throw out the one thing that has never been my friend? Why can’t I throw out the sqaure that shows me a number and teaches me to hate myself?
Its only hurting me…but I can’t let them go.